My Heart is Tired of Waiting


I typed that title up when I was brainstorming ideas.

I was sitting in our living room, holding my two days shy of one month old, begging God to open doors. I was tired of waiting. I was tired of feeling like a failure. I was tired of being too scared to “jump”.

I graduated with my BA in December of 2016. I walked across the stage, an honor graduate, three days after my Papa had passed and I had ZERO clue what I was supposed to do.

The whole time Papa was in the hospital, I was reading a book called “The Millionaire Next Door”. If you haven’t read this book, go. It’s literally life changing. I knew what I wanted to do…

But I didn’t know how to get there.

So, I didn’t.

I claimed I was “working on my social circle” as I volunteered.

Or “I’m looking for experience” as I applied to every job imaginable.

And when all of them fell through, I blamed my weight and my baby face, and promptly informed my husband those were also the reasons I’d never be successful in a commission based field.

So, I started my MAT. Because I wanted flexibility but also a steady paycheck. And I enjoy my schooling, I do. But still, the job hasn’t come.

During a conversation with my Dad this past week he (lovingly) told me.

“You’re problem, is all right here” as he points to his head.

“You’ve got all the brains. But you’re too scared to take a risk”.

It was the push I needed.

I set up a meeting with someone that I admired who worked in the field I was dreaming about. She met me (and my Momma, whom she knew through church) for lunch and I left that meeting feeling empowered.

In fact, as we were walking to the parking lot my Mom looked at me and said “this is what you’re supposed to be doing”.

I can’t thank my new friend, and future “boss”, enough for taking time out of her day to meet with me. She didn’t sugar coat the business, but she definitely put things in perspective for me. She wasn’t scared to answer all of my questions, honestly, especially the personal ones. I truly can’t wait to learn and grow from her.

Step one was to finally get the nerve to reach out to someone in that career field.

Step Two: Create a business plan! This is so important to me as I’m constantly making goals.

Step Three: Start School & Pass the exam

Step Four: GET STARTED!!

I plan to be officially starting my journey in September, if not sooner!


My challenge to you today, is to take that first step. Whether it’s starting a new blog, trying a new job, getting back to the gym, etc. Take the first step. Like Steve Harvey said “You have to jump”

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